Amen

I hurt
Please be the kiss to make it better
I ache
Please be the balm to soothe this painful heart
I weep
Please be the vase to catch my tears
I break
Please be the hand to pick up the pieces
I bleed
Please be the bandage to close this wound

I yield...
Please please...make something from this broken life

This week....

I'm sorry I've been such a bum and not posted on my blog recently.

We're having a 10 day summer vacation starting this Monday, so I've spent part of this week trying to make plans to visit a few friends and my siblings.

My nephew turned 1 last week and I went to his 1st Birthday party.

Isn't he such a cutie?

So I'm around, alive, maybe worse for the wear, but hanging in there. :)

And this insane heat wave is finally easing up on us!!! Thank God. 2 weeks and 126 deaths later. Sigh. Crazy stuff.

Trip down to TJ...

Pics from the other night...drove down to TJ for a housewarming party...was great fun (snicker).....

Studly relative and beauty Marie

Sam and I ;)

That would be me....caught in the act of consuming an energy drink. heh

Trip down to TJ...and goodbye Darlin Ree (cont...)

amusing ourselves on the long drive down reading a Sunsign book....

And now for some trigger happy shots in the car....Goodbye Marie XXXX

:)

Let's have a happy post here

Some pictures taken/have found in the past week that gave me a reason to smile... I give you....

One of my dearest friends, Aich on her b'day, right before I left Japan. You are loved and missed too much

Hiki TOURTURING ME....sigh...men these days. You should have seen the bruises on my arms the next day

The beauty Steph I am so blessed to live with...muah

It was an interesting last few days. JayDee and Marie's Birthday/Goodbye party....having a couple of total sweeties come and visit and getting to hang out with them.....helping with the JT event etc... lots to keep me busy, which is ALWAYS a good thing.

Idleness is the Devil's workshop

I need to post more pics....as soon as I get my hands on a couple of em I will.

Yes, you also make me smile. XXX

To Marie

You will be missed
A gift that fleetingly danced across the pages of my life
Flawed, yet so beautiful in your imperfection
Yours is a heart that has been wrung
A life that has been crushed
A spirit that has not been broken

You will be missed
A soul that understood a damaged, world weary stranger
Accepted what others had found hard to love
Yours is a heart gifted in loving
A life that has painted a rainbow
A spirit that has lightened the grey

You will be missed
An artist that colored the world beautiful with your presence
A sensitive soul, yet resilient and strong
Yours is a heart that will be in mine
A life that has touched me indelibly
A spirit that these tears are now shed for


I love you

praise

An acronym for the day.....

FD

TYJ

They say the darkest hour is just before the dawn
Then my dawn should be about ready to be breaking.... I pray

Praise is the victory

YAY

I know I'm a few days late....but a shout out and big hug and kiss to my dad who had his birthday on the 9th. I miss you...

Saw my sis and bro yesterday for my freeday....
And......I now have my own computer!!!!!!!!! TYJ!!!!!!!!!! YAY
For those who know me, this is no small development. I've been a sworn enemy of all things gadgety and have had no wish to have one of these computer thingies of my own.
I guess the Lord knows I needed one, as He supplied it. I'm so thankful. (TY sis!!!!)
Still trying to understand how this baby works and I think I need to give it a nickname.
But so far so good.
PnPs and daily Word will be so much easier.
So after scouring the electronics stores we stopped off at Chilis where we had some beers and Bloody Marys and then went on to the theater to see Nacho Libre.
I admit I really liked it. The deadpan humor was great.

Lots going on for me right now so if you remember, shoot up a prayer...pretty please.....I could use it.

Pool and Unsent letters

Went out last night and played pool. I seriously suck. It's pretty funny.
But it was just what I needed, to get out of the house and get my mind off of a few...um things
From attempting to pole dance with our pool poles, to flashing as much cleavage as could possibly be allowed to distract the other team, to near mooning and dancing around to Mexican music.....it was a manic night, filled with crazy laughter and lots of fun. I'm glad I went.

And when I got home, I wrote this....and then proceeded to talk Marie's ear off over glass of wine til the wee hours of the morning. Good stuff. Love you girl.


A letter never to be sent

I watched you tonight
Subtle nuances that I missed previously...due to my own inability to decipher what was going on in your mind
You played that game exceptionally well...although I feel you never knew it was a game
So I blame you for nothing
Only myself for my hesitancy in believing that you could love me the way it turns out you actually did.
I see it now
Bittersweet in this revealing... It has taught me more than you could know
I am stronger because of it
Thank you

bleh

Take the drama out of life and what does it leave you with.....
Peace
I think I'm finding more and more that I prefer simplicity to the dramatic

Fourth of July came and went. It was a long weekend filled with moments that I'm still trying to figure out....or not figure out.
The moon has been beautiful, as has the night sky. I've had some bonding moments with it over the last few days.

Sometimes things in life are better not knowing and understanding clearly, as definition takes away the excitement of the unknown.

Boy I should quit drinking these energy drinks.

Lethal

Goodnight......bite ;)