Caffeine

Note to self:
Coffee and then two energy drinks on top of that is NOT...I repeat NOT a good idea....
Not unless you enjoy the shaky hand/dizzy/nauseas feeling
Sometimes I'm just that stupid
Argh

I can't believe 2006 is almost over

Christmas party pics..... part one

We go waaaay back...

Nina was my angel...she was the BESTest...prophecies, cinnamon gum, tilts, candies, etc... you name it....and then to top it off.....a Victoria Secrets gift card.
Thank you...you're wonderful :)

One of those odd, unaware moments...being amused at...something or other

Christmas party pics..... part two

Presents presents...so much fun

Hehe :)

Angel looking oh so hot (during a moment's break from paparazzi duty...heh)

What an odd facial expression...eww

Activated Christmas Party...(note to self: to avoid arms looking unnaturally huge, keep shoulder away from camera lens...sigh) Aren't Jules and Amy beautiful!!

Pictures...finally....

These are a little older, from our Thanksgiving day/dinner down in TJ.......... Christmas pics to follow

Merry Christmas

To all my loved ones, family, friends....I wish you a very Merry Christmas.

May your stockings be filled with goodies,
May your day be filled with carols
May your eggnog be spiked and your turkey tasty
And may your heart be full of smiles

I miss you and pray that you have a wonderful Christmas day.

Boring post

Life has been moving along at a fairly fast pace....
Went with the kids yesterday to sing at a hospital. They did great...and it was oh so fun helping to keep track and corral the 15 of them.
Last night was girls night for Nyna's birthday over at Activated. We had some wine, played cards, chit chatted..and even got our "fortunes" told by Justin later on in the evening....snicker...
We're having our Home's Christmas dinner tonight, which promises to be a fun affair....I'll see if I can take some pics and post em, as I haven't posted many recently.
Life is good
Merry Christmas luvs

It's almost Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!

I really should be more faithful to update this....
but, hopefully you, my few faithful readers aren't totally bored with coming back here daily for updates and finding only sporadic ones.....

I'm happy...just thot you should know :) I'm starting to feel like myself again.

In the last week I've been told the news of the passing of two people who were dear to me.... I don't do well generally with the whole "death" thing (who does)....it's happened to those near me a few too many times... but I feel I've been given a certain measure of grace, I think, to deal with it this time around.

So to you Grandpa, I love you, I'm sorry to see you go but I know you're happier now in Heaven.

To you, Tio...... You were a dear friend....I think more a brother, even. You were a constant in my childhood, a close friend in adolescence, someone I hold so many memories of and with.
Here's to the memories... I love you

Random update

We haven't had much of an internet connection over the last week, thus my lack of posting.
I've been busy but very happy.
Change is good.
Went to the Christmas party last night...fellowshipped, danced and had a lot of fun seeing and talking with everyone. Spent part of the night trying to convince a few people how "harmless" I actually am. Ahem (IT'S TRUE!!!)
I'm getting settled in here and am SO thankful..
Went with Nina and the kids yesterday to an old folks home for a show... it was good to get out and be a part of witnessing like that.

And here's something I wrote a few weeks back:

Before I met you
I dreamed you
Before I knew you
I kissed you
Before I held you
I understood you
Before I felt you
I missed you
Before I loved you
You walked away.

For my new year.....

I thank You, Jesus, for the journey You’ve taken me on this past year

I thank You for giving me the courage to leave what could have been considered an idyllic life and job and give it all up for You, so that I could strive for the level of discipleship I felt you were calling me to. I thank You that You gave the gift of bravery to me, one who is a coward in so many ways…. Bravery to leave behind family and dearest friends, even one I loved too deeply and know that You would fill the empties if I would just trust in You.

I thank you for the new friends You’ve placed in my life, for the unconditional love they’ve shown me, tho I am so often such an unlovable fool. I thank You that You’ve let me “click” with them and that they’ve taken me and my quirks and loved me anyway.

I thank you for the battles of depression I’ve found myself in this year, even for the extreme feelings of worthlessness, as it’s made me see how worthless I am in myself and how much I need you in order to do or be anything of value.

I thank you that tho I may be lonely I am not alone. I thank you that you have done everything possible to show me time and again that you love me and you are enough.

Guide me gently this coming year. Help me to be brave. Help me to tenaciously fight and hold on, for You’ve promised victory and blessings, if I don’t let go. Help me to love and be loved. Help me to be happy, happy in You. Be my security

Amen

Wish me a Happy 26th if you get the urge....I miss you all and love you

Goodbye

Goodbye Anaheim.....
Thank you for the last 8 months
I love you guys

SnM....snicker

I'll miss........
Nightly walks with the three of us
"SPIDERS".....
Dancing wildly around to Marianne...and other choice songs
Making you taste my food
Comforting each other during those difficult moments
Listening to you talk
Being called "woman"
Making you read my poetry
Your boldness and fearlessness and the fact that you'll say things I only dare think
Borrowing your stuff
Your beautiful voice
Daily workouts
Beers, Tilts and all that good stuff
Dinner and Happy Hour at our little Mexican restaurant
Rooming with you
Laughing with you
Crying with you
Being with you

Thank you for being there for me these last 8 months. I know I'm not the easiest person to love, but you accepted and loved me regardless of my quirks. You are wonderful. I'll miss you... I love you

moving and stuff

I'm moving on Monday, DV...packing now
I dyed my hair black last night...don't ask why
My dad sent me an early B'day card today...made me miss him...waaaa
Birthdays make me nostalgic.

Oh my

Tequila makes me talk too much

Sigh

Past few days I've:

Recorded another Keys song
Made a demo for a song I wrote
Went Christmas caroling/witnessing
Been working out like a mad woman
Danced the night away at Dulcy's Goodbye Party
Received a very intense (in a good way, I think) letter from someone
Wrote another poem
Experimented with some new recipes
Kept my cool around you


This is the first Christmas in 9 years (or ever, maybe) that I'm not out doing concerts everyday, sometimes more than one a day. It feels strange not to be singing. I do miss it.
I have to keep telling myself that I know I'm doing what the Lord's told me to do and I've put music "on the altar" and know He'll give it back to me when it's His time. In the meantime I guess I'll take to deafening everyone in the house with my loud renditions of favorite Christmas songs. Beware. Heh

"I miss you most at Christmas time...".