I'm gonna miss this.....

You're gonna miss this

You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

I'm already dealing with sappiness overload, so I'm not going to expound too much, lest I end up choking myself up...(oh and I couldn't find a pic of Eli and Renee and kids...sob :( but your picture should definitely be up there as well...ILY guys!)
But thank you for the last year and 7 months...
These were some of the best times of my life, living and working with you. I'm glad I won't be too far away, but I will miss you guys too much to put into words.
Forget me not.....
I love you

24 hours and counting.....

Recorded vocals with Eli today for my song "Farewells".... it's morphed styles into being semi-rock. Pretty awesome....I think it's gonna be good :)
After being in denial all week it finally hit me for real this morning -- I'm gone tomorrow evening.
I cried. Yes, I'll admit it. But it's all good.
Expect a goodbye post pretty soon.
Here's to the future.

I'm melting...

I can't decide which is worse...the summers in Japan that I grew up with, where the temperatures were in the 90s and the humidity was in the 80-90s....or the past few days with the temps in Escondido up in the high 100s.
I'm seriously suffering from heat exhaustion.
In other news, we had a wonderful pool party last night for Chris & Ken's 25th anniversary. It was a crazy amount of work, but we successfully pulled it off...TYJ.
This is my last week up here. I think it's starting to dawn on me that I'm moving. Ouch. But hopefully a good ouch.

Angel,

When God made you, he must've spent a few extra minutes....

I'm not even gonna elaborate on all the ways I love you.....impossible to count.
I'm just really thankful to have you as such a close friend in my life.
Happy Happy Birthday.

Muah

I may have forgotten to tell you....but

You probably already knew....or guessed...or heard via the grapevine....
I'm moving. Yep. Down to one of our sister homes across the border...Within the next 2 weeks.
So yay for change. Please keep me in your prayers during this time......
Pray that I can flow, adjust, and that the proverbial love of ruts that I have ingrained in me will be happily replaced with a love of the new.
It's gonna be fine.....

In honor of the men in my life......

I'm luckier than most. I have two amazing dads in my life. Both are special and uniquely perfect in their own way. This post is in honor of them....

To the biological, first Dad, Ezra (aka James):

"You made me smile, when I cried,
You gave me peace deep down inside,
You gave me love I just can't hide
Most of all you gave me life when I died."

Remember that one? You used to sing it to us as we went to sleep. Our favorite Daddiya who we could always count on.
I remember when we were so young and mom was traveling...you played both Mommy and Daddy role. You were always so, so caring and tender, yet at the same time strong and steady. I felt safe with you. I still do.
You continued to be the loving understanding Dad when my adolescent hormones went into overdrive and my Sagittarius temper knew no boundaries. I don't know how you put up with me and forgave me for my many outbursts during that time.
And then there were the days of the band...a wonderful 8 years of learning to work together, not only as father/daughter but as co-workers and friends.
I've told you this before, but I still name you and the Lord as the two main things that pulled me out of my extremely severe anorexic state at 18. Thank you for loving me unconditionally through that and continuing to love me through the many ups and downs my overactive, neurotic brain put me through.
I'll never be able to tell you how much I love you, and even using those three words are a paltry imitation of what I feel when I think of you, dearest Daddiya.
Thank you for everything. You are the bestest.

To the honorable Step-father Chris (aka D.C. or Daddy Chris)

You came into our lives when we desperately needed a Daddy figure, mom was traveling, dad lived elsewhere... you patiently took care of a bunch of rascal kids and we grew to love you, so much. It only seemed natural when you became a more official part of our lives when you married mom. You're so perfect for her and you're perfect for us kids too. (A calming force to the Rudow intensity...heh)
I've always admired and loved your easy going nature, your cheerfulness, your hugs, your practicalness and the fact that you're talented at basically anything and everything you do. And you make really good pancakes.
Thank you for making Mom so happy and for being a wonderful father figure in my life.
I love you so much and miss you.

I blame the fact that I'm 27 and still very single on you guys. Heh. They say daughters look for men like their fathers to marry....and heck, I'm still looking and doubt I'll ever find anyone that measures up to you two.

Happy Fathers Day. Am I lucky or what. Doubly blessed.

Last weekend....

Went to a Toga party to celebrate Lily's birthday....
Party was fun, with numerous pictures taken, though proverbial permission is still being gotten to post them. Had fun dressing up and doing crazy things to my hair. Yay.
Hopefully the other friendlies who attended will let me post a couple more.Til then, here's a couple of urs truly and one of the food...

Tasty Morsels...

My brilliant big sis Susanna has started a blog.
Click me or on the linky section for good writing and bit of fun. YAY.

A whole slew of pics.....

Last week Kenji, Angel, Boo, Tory, Luca and I rented a boat down in Ensenada....
Caguamas, sunshine, sea and friends were the perfect combination for one of the best WnRs I've had in ages. We are SO gonna have to do this again.

Enjoying the view
Our version of the Titanic pose (Tory, Angel, Kenj and I)

Kenji

Angel

Tory and Kenji "rocking the boat", literally.

Me looking on amused :)

I suppose Kenji was tired of sitting in the normal chairs, so he opted for this seat.

I love you. Muah

The Museum

Welcome to this place,
Also known as my heart.
Stay awhile and have a walkabout,
A look around as you
Psychoanalyze what you see --
Do let me know your conclusions.
(That is, if you come to any)

Look, but don’t touch.
If you break it you bought it.
Keepsakes will cost you and
Trophies are not for sale.
Don’t bother to ask why --
You probably won’t be told
(Tho, exceptions aren’t unheard of)

I see your secret satisfaction,
Thinking you’ve actually stumbled
Upon a treasure hitherto unnoticed;
Though in my mind I see no such thing,
Rather only a broken piece --
A long forgotten fragment
(From a time when I actually cared)

Stealing souvenirs will not be tolerated.
As stated before, what’s in here stays here;
And no, I’m afraid you can’t move in
No matter how much you like the view.
Room only for one, and that spot’s long been taken --
So enjoy the tour, and do leave your feedback
(So I can know what not to do next time)

As you’ve noticed, admission is free,
Though donations are appreciated.
Call it charity or what have you, I don’t mind.
The guest book is in the corner
If you’d like to tickle my ears with trivialities --
Something to make me smile.
(And feel like maybe I was worth your time)

Thanks for stopping by,
I hope you enjoyed your visit.
Visiting hours are limited,
So be sure to call to see if I’m open.
Thank you and goodnight.

I wonder.....

if I'll ever learn not to do things that make me kick myself the next day.
Sometimes I want to beat my head against the wall, maybe that would make me think twice before repeating some of my antics.
Man I'm a fool sometimes. I annoy myself to no end.
I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on the Sagittarius in me :P
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