Waste a minute of your time wandering in my brain

This post has nothing to do with anything....but something got me thinking today about the commonly sung/written about scenario of "being right next to the right one" and not knowing it until one happy morning you suddenly wake up and find that that person you've known forever just so happens to be the love of your life and you fall gut wrenching madly in love with them.
Personally I think that theory is flawed. I don't believe in love striking you randomly and out of thin air especially when you've known the person forever and never had lovey feelings for them.
Now there is one type of love that I believe can develop when living with someone for a long time, but it's not the sweep you off your feet, punch in the gut, crazy, passionate, head in the clouds, heart in your hands (insert other cliche one liners here) type that I've heard people write or theorize about. It's the more steady, I love you deeply but my heart doesn't flutter every time you're near type of love.
Maybe I'm wrong, but I'd be interested to hear if the first scenario has actually happened to anyone.
Or not.
NEways I'm sorry you just wasted minutes of your time reading worthless workings of my overcrowded mind.

Man I haven't been in love in so long I've almost forgotten what it feels like. Pathetic.

Or maybe it's for the best. Less complicated.

Stuff

Here I am again, back with update number two. Oh goodie.
I'm driving down here...sort of.... I haven't conquered numero uno fear of the TJ border crossing yet, but as fate would have it, I might be forced into it sooner than my comfort zone is cool with. Good stuff. Stretch.....
Besides that, tho, I'm comfortable out on the roads here. Just keep in mind that noone follows the traffic laws and you'll be fine. heh.
Ensenada is a fish-lovers paradise. Clara and I went to the fish market the other day and provisioned about 10 kilos worth in one shot. Awesome. I'm just hoping fellow home members are cool with having that as a staple meat in our diet. I'm in heaven.
Jason, Dan and Bill went out fishing today and caught a wonderfully large amount of fish (bonita)....they made sushi and sashimi with it. Man it was delish. I had all the sashimi I wanted...and it was so cool to know that the guys caught it this morning. Talk about fresh.
I spent most of today in bed...I'm still nursing a very large sleep debt due to insomnia and the 4:30 am wake up for shopping and pick ups in the good ol' USA we pulled off this week.
It's all good
I have the urge to try to write something funny, witty and the like, but I'm afraid this is all you're gonna get tonight. I'm beat, even tho it was WnR. grrr

and I love you too.

life in a pistachio nutshell

I suppose this is where I tell you about life down here. Now that it's been almost a month.
Well, I'll try to be brief, though there's much to much going on to say in mere sentences....
We're down in Ensenada, no more Mexico-on-the-border, we're living in the real deal. As much as I miss aspects of the States, it is pretty cool to be back on the mission field, so to speak. Mexicans are so easy to witness to and very sweet, so that's pretty exciting.
We live in a big house with a tennis court, swimming pool and jacuzzi (currently being fixed, but soon to be up and running...yay), plus nice grounds...and the score of the century is that one of our sister Homes is in walking distance. I kid you not, about 5 minutes or less away. It's the coolest thing to have so much fellowship with the friendlies over there. Score!!!
Nyna and I have a room together at the top of the house, our own little staircase leading up to a third floor that consists of a good sized room, big windows overlooking the beach (which happens to be directly across the street from us) and our own bathroom/shower. We call it the penthouse. (Come and visit us, yes??...we'll show you around ;-)...snicker)
I've been crazy busy with homecare/ scheduling & managing/ kitchen/ shopping and pick-ups and general home life. Plus we're starting to do a little bit with music, seeing as there are a whole slew of musicians living here. I'm starting to learn to sing in Spanish. Not too difficult as I can sing in Japanese. The pronunciation is similar.
So far so good. Maybe I should make this a series of posts, as if I wrote everything in one, it would be too long and far too boring.

If you think of me, pray for my insomnia, pretty please. It's the worst it's been in a long time. Sometimes sleeping as little as 15 to 30 mins a night. Not a testimony.
Thanks

Ole

To be continued....

Tagged by Ruthie, so here you go....

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
With my birth name, unfortunately yes....
My parents decided that I needed to be a walking tribute to both of my grandmothers and my great grandmother (wonderful women, I'm sure, I just really dislike both names)...thus the Rebecca Mary that is written on my passport....Niki (nickname of Nicole) has been my name since 15, tho, so that's what I consider my real name...which isn't named after anyone.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
hmmm...I don't cry much, but I shed a few goodbye tears when I left Alps, the last home I was in.

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Neither here nor there on that one.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Tuna...then maybe turkey or something

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably, I generally get along with most everyone and I'd like to consider myself a pretty un-strenuous person....so yeah, I think I would.

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Constantly. Grrr

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Actually I dunno...I used to say unequivocally yes, but now I'm not so sure. I suppose it would depend on why and who I'm with.

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope...takes way too much time.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Actually I'm a lot stronger than I look...(or so I've been told :D)

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Anything Caramel-ly or Peanut butter cup flavored. Please no chocolate tho. Don't really care for it.

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Physically speaking, I suppose it has to do with weight and height....otherwise I guess I tune into their speech habits and thereby attempt to judge their intelligence by that. haha

RED OR PINK?
Red and pink and pink and red....I don't really care. Red if I'm feeling bold, pink if I'm feeling girly.

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
A toss up between my addictive side and my perfectionism.

WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
them

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A shrimp ceviche tostada

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The sound of the main road outside my window, and the sound of the ocean, also outside my window.

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
turquoise

FAVORITE SMELLS?
Gardenias, Gucci Accenti or Gucci Rush

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
hmmm I dunno...maybe Michelle(walkie talkie) or David (normal phone).

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
hmmmm I suppose figure skating (lol)...I'm not much of a sports on TV fan

FAVORITE FOOD?
seafood

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy...at least over scary....

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Perfect Man

SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer for sure

HUGS OR KISSES?
Depending on who's hugging or kissing

FAVORITE DESSERT?
Ice cream...I guess. I'm also a sucker for cheesecake

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Amazingly enough, nothing concrete at the moment. I've been busy and not investing much time in reading...must change this.

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Nada

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
TV?
What is TV?...oh we don't have TV, that's why I'm clueless

FAVORITE SOUND?
the sound....of silence

music video :)

Oh, and I just found this on youtube....

My old band's version of Dance Dance....

Sigh good memories

A new song.....title-less as yet

There are a million things I could and should blog about, but I'm just kind of out of words at the moment. So in the absence of words, I give you lyrics to the most recent song I wrote:

You sent me raindrops, I feared a flood.
You sent me roses, I feared the blood
From the pricking of the thorns,
From a soul and spirit torn,
From battle wounds and a body tired and worn.
I stood outside and watched the heavens weep,
Joined in with them as tears ran down my cheek;
Petals strewn all around,
My roses on the ground,
Screaming inside without making a sound

I cry, why, Dear Master do You choose
My tender, lonely heart to bruise?
I cry, why, do You my spirit break?
This pain is much too hard to take.
But in this silent place I feel You calm my fears,
As You make rainbows from the rivers of my tears.

You sent a respite, a time to mend,
You sent me peace; I could not comprehend
Why the hand that sent the rain
Would be one and the same
As the hand that dried and eased the aching pain.
And though I cannot say I fully understand,
Help me trust You have my life completely planned,
And let the scars that I acquire
From the battles and the fire,
Mold me into the bride that you desire.


I think it's kind of a pretty song, but who knows. NEways, I need to go take a shower. I bid you adieu.

Blehghegh...splat

So I'm up here State side for the night/day...darling Kevin is lending me his comp so I can catch up on work and emails etc...
Having Michelle as my partner for the long 3 1/2 hour drive was the score of the century. Thank God for small favors and lights at the end of the proverbial tunnel.
So...I was thinking of expounding about the new home and new life....but no, not tonight. I need time to do it properly....there's alot of awesome stuff to tell you about, and I'd rather do one nice long boring post about it instead of something haphazard, which is what it would be if I decide to talk about it now.
But I would like to say before I go to bed (more like living room couch than bed...but I digress...) that:
Change is good...lots of on your toes moments
I love Nyna (new roomie...SCORE!)
I can't survive without a computer and that really bothers me
I miss Tilts
I'm still scared to drive in Mexico
I like the new personalities I'm living with. Very fun, intense, very cool.
I think I need to work on having more self confidence...
Recently I'm jinxed in all things electronic
I miss talking to certain people on the phone...sigh
I'm getting more and more random as I get older

Oh..Oh...Happy Birthday Biological, wonderful, amazing Daddiya...you are indescribably wonderful and thank you for being my dad :)

Goodnight...

My Worst Nightmare

Minutes after finishing a couple hour long meeting of making weekly schedules and such my computer decided to die on me. Just my luck.
So I'm currently offline until I can get one of the computer Gods (aka Steve) to help fix it.
Please pray it will be it fixed.
Weep

Hello Mexico

I realised that the last post I made was the 666'th on this blog.
That thot made me feel slightly uncomfortable so I'm posting just for the heck of changing that number to something less evil-ish.
So tomorrow is July 4th. We're gonna BBQ in the afternoon and hopefully have a rematch of that Taboo game we played last year on the night of the 4th, when we women WON the game. We did, we did. I even blogged about it -- so there.
The boys are adamantly REFUSING to believe that. See they were too beer-happy to remember what really happened. No matter. We'll show them who the real winners are tomorrow. Just you wait.
I had a 12 hour work day today. Shopping and Food bank take on a whole new meaning when you live in Ensenada. So I'm beat.
Ole....
I'll tell you about the house, my room, the new life etc.. when I'm slightly less exhausted.
Happy 4th. Be safe.
I need a hug. Goodnight.